"Mirror, Mirror on the wall who's the fairest one of all?"
I have not always agreed with what the mirror shows. The mirror has become my enemy, yet I spend more and more time in front of it. I have hated my appearance for a long time and It's been hard to accept myself for who I am. I seem to find something I don't like about my body and then hate it and wish it was different or looked like the women in magazines. This week instead of finding something I didn't like about my body I found something I liked about it. I like my eyes. The color and shape of them. I have focused so much on my eyes this week that I don't focus on things I don't like. By they end of this challenge I hope to LOVE EVERYTHING about myself.
This week has definitely been challenging and several times I second guessed my decision. I thought to myself "Why did you have to do this? Why are you letting everyone see you like this?" Now I know I made the right decision to do The Naked Face Project but I will still struggle and doubt myself throughout this experience. It is not going to be easy, but life isn't easy. I want to grow up loving myself instead of hating myself and the way I look.
I never thought I would be able to shower and get ready in 20 minutes. Turns out it is possible. I was able to get ready in 20 minutes because I didn't have any make-up or jewelry to put on. I was able to get ready and even eat breakfast before leaving the house. Before this week it would take me a lot longer to get ready and a lot of the time I would choose make-up over eating!
I had someone comment on my post last week that really got me to thinking. Just because someone wears make up doesn't mean they are self conscious or have low self esteem and I'm sorry if I gave that impression. It's not true for all women but it is true for me. I am so worried about what people will think of me so I cover up and change the real me because I have grown to hate the real me.
You are brilliant!
ReplyDeleteI smiled so much reading this!! I absolutely love your attitude.. choosing to focus on things you love; you know it won't always be easy; you want to love yourself. And I really hope (& expect!) that this challenge will really help you to love yourself - you are going to get so much out of this, and I promise it'll get easier over time (love that you're seeing some benefits already though!). Hang in there!